Tag: alcoholism

Everyone is safe

Three weeks in, three weeks out. Longer now, but I wrote these words, longhand, after I’d been out of hospital three weeks. I’m typing them now, with today’s point of view, so you can’t believe anything. What they… Read More

Day 16 – October 16 2018

Didn’t get my BP taken this morning. Waking up was hard enough. A nurse woke me at 8.10 to remind me to go and take my meds. They like to clear us out by 8.30 but I went… Read More

Day 12 – October 12 2018 Dissociative

Dissociative Behaviour Disorder I learned from my shrink this morning that I may be suffering from this too. So many diagnoses at my age! It does describe perfectly how I feel when I become a bully, and yell,… Read More

Day 11 – October 11 2018

BP 105/70 They tell me to drink more water, all I hear is: “Drink more coffee.” We were talking last night about the good old days, when people with “mental illness” were just crazy and they were locked… Read More

Day 9 – October 9, 2018

The one where they teach us about self-compassion. Studies have shown that entrepreneurs become entrepreneurs because they want to. But, the ones who remain successful are those who are self-compassionate in times of hardship or failure. Wait, am… Read More

Day 7 – October 7, 2018 – Day 2 of *The Weekend*

I feel hungover. I can barely open my eyes. BP 120/70 No standing BP – it’s high enough When I used to drink, I didn’t really get hangovers, not that I could remember, because I drank vodka with… Read More

Jeff and Genn got to see Jen Cloher at the Spiegeltent!

PM – My nurse didn’t talk to me all day and I didn’t get my evening BP checked. I told you he was a CUNT! However, there are things I’m really glad about: Jeff got to go out… Read More

Day 5 – October 5 2018 with MUSIC and a Photo of Me

BP 100/80 Standing 110/80 Well, amazing what can happen in a few short minutes. This morning, I pulled down my holland blind; this is how I learn that they are held up by magnets. I just pulled gently,… Read More

Day 3 – October 3 2018

Morning BP 112/82 – Shit, this place is giving me high blood pressure. I go to the community meeting this morning hoping for something but it just ends up being an opportunity to whinge about air-con, the locked… Read More

There was a time when all I wanted to do was speed everywhere

I fixed things I redecorated (still do a bit) I cooked I watched foreign movies – at the cinema! I made the bed every day (still do) I had friends I fucked I showered every day I listened… Read More